https://computerghost.dreamwidth.org/ Life Log - Dreamwidth Studios Thu, 09 Apr 2026 00:54:25 GMT LiveJournal / Dreamwidth Studios computerghost personal https://v2.dreamwidth.org/18086394/4243129 https://computerghost.dreamwidth.org/ 100 100 https://computerghost.dreamwidth.org/4051.html Thu, 09 Apr 2026 00:54:25 GMT https://computerghost.dreamwidth.org/4051.html CW: pretty negative.<br /><br />I was going to be here more actively and respond to stuff, but my mental health has been awful since lowering my Vyvanse. I don't think withdrawals are the reason anymore. I don't know. I've been feeling like I'm barely holding on.<br /><br /><img src="https://www.dreamwidth.org/tools/commentcount?user=computerghost&ditemid=4051" width="30" height="12" alt="comment count unavailable" style="vertical-align: middle;"/> comments https://computerghost.dreamwidth.org/4051.html personal medication mental health update distressed public 3 https://computerghost.dreamwidth.org/2363.html Mon, 06 Oct 2025 22:11:32 GMT https://computerghost.dreamwidth.org/2363.html Hi! Planning to catch up on this website again soon. Also, thanks for the comments on my last post. I'm hoping to get back to those soon as well.<br /><br />I think I've realized something: I've been approaching burnout when it comes to streaming. That's probably why it's so hard to even think about anything related to it. I'm not sure what to do about it, but I have started playing The Sims 4 again recently, where I recreated my partner and I in a Sims game for the first time that I remember. My sim has been working on the streaming career, and something about taking a step back for a while plus working toward the streaming career in the game might've helped somehow. (Maybe burnout wasn't 100% the problem?)<br /><br />My mood has also been weird lately, which doesn't feel completely random becuase a few things have changed. I tried Adderall again instead of Vyvanse, and started <a href="https://www.reddit.com/r/MTHFR/comments/1730mw4/mthfr_a_supplement_stack_approach/">this supplement protocol</a> for mental health. (My partner did some research at time point, and this protocal was on our list of things to try. I'm pretty sure my mom had me try something similar with supplements as a kid, as she had me try so many things for my health whether I wanted to try them or not, but I don't remember how that went, probably because it was such a low time of my life.) I guess I just need to figure out what's affecting my mood. I'm seeing my psychiatrist tomorrow just in case that helps.<br /><br />I also have to go to the gym tonight, which I'm <em>dreading</em>, probably partially because I'm depressed. I don't think I'm too depressed to go, though. Hopefully I'm not.&nbsp;<br /><br />That's all I think I have for now.<br /><br /><img src="https://www.dreamwidth.org/tools/commentcount?user=computerghost&ditemid=2363" width="30" height="12" alt="comment count unavailable" style="vertical-align: middle;"/> comments https://computerghost.dreamwidth.org/2363.html mental health update personal medication depressed public 2